I don’t know how gay people make sense of being queer and of faith. I have never been religious but I see so many queer people struggling with trying to reconcile their faith with their sexuality. I don’t know how you do it. I feel like you shouldn’t be so loyal to a God that make you question so much of how he created you. Or is it that God does not have a problem with you but those who are supposed to teach us about Him create stories about how being gay is a sin? I respect your choices and decisions and your faith, but I hate how much problem it causes you inside yourself. I am sorry that you are having such a hard time.